The funny thing about growing as an artist is that you never notice it when it is actually occurring. You keep drawing, getting frustrated, and resigning yourself to what is your current best. Yet, after enough time, you look back and realize just how far you've really come.
It was only 7 years ago that I rediscovered my passion for art and only 5 years ago that I decided to pursue that passion as an artist. In that time, slowly growing beside peers both much younger than myself or rolemodels with far more experience, I didn't think I had grown much at all. After browsing today through my oldest pieces (some as far back as 2007), I now realize the leaps and bounds I've made. I still have even further to climb, but I've made legitimate progress. And I'm really proud of that.
Still, the creator's curse is never being satisfied with one's work. Because of that curse, I find myself compelled to "clean up" my gallery and flush much of my outdated work. On one hand, it's like rummaging through a painful and embarrassing time capsule. On the other hand, each piece is a marker of the path I've stumbled from, marking each time I tripped and dusted myself off. On to better things!
In my effort to streamline my work, I will be removing a great deal of my current gallery. The "Geeks in Love" webcomic and "Tale of Narcissus" short comic will be moved to the scraps section for anyone that still wants to gander at them. The fan art section will be thinned out to current work that represents either my present standard or that reflects the outlets that truly inspired me personally. The cosplay section will be deleted, as I feel it distracts from my artwork. In the future, should I pursue sewing further, I may create a separate account for just my cosplay and reupload those photo shoots there.
As I wrap up my desperately outdated commissions, I am excited to be free to pursue the projects I am truly passionate about: My mythology/fairytale comic "BLIND FOLLIES" and Shane Matthew Murphy's comic "BIRDLAND" (which I am coloring and lettering). Rather than having to make the appearance of looking busy and accomplished by accruing as many freelance jobs as possible and churning out sketches just to stay relevant online, I feel I need to take a step back to pursue the stories inside of me that have been waiting to be told these 5 years. I promise good things in the future. Hopefully they'll be worth the wait. See you on the convention circuit!